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21 February 2014

CEMBURU!!! SO????


Assalam semua dan what up bro n sis...
hope korang sekarang happy with your beloved..
x kira lah kekasih ker, kawan2 ker or famili korang..kan2!!!

so, the topic for today is all about
CEMBURU
  
or in english nyer we call as 'jealousy'..
yup
JEALOUSY!!!!


so,whats in your thought  why i wanna talk about this universal topic right now....why???
fyi, im is kind of person that is very very cemburu...cemburu with a lot of things...
i dont know why???
i tried very hard to get rid all of these feelings...but i feel like i cant...

cemburu with that
with this 
with anything

why 
why
why????

ok...at first lah..cemburu terhadap kawan..
so i wanna ask korang, what willl you feel when your besties have a new friend..
apa korang rasa??

mesti sakit kan....sakit sgt..really sakit..
but here kita mesti paham that our kawan tuh x semestinya will be ours forever n ever...
we must learn how to let him or her go....
let him or her go here, not give the meaning that you need to let our friend go from entire of our life...no...
bkn mcm tuh...

kita kena belajar terima hakikat actually, kawan yg kita syg , cinta skrg..lps nih akn pergi jgk dr kita ikut haluan masing2...such as kahwin, kerja or study abroad...n lps kawan kita tuh pergi, he or she will find their own new friends..same cycle goes to us....

ok...sekarang mase nak relate kan ape yg aq ckp dgn apa yg aku hadapi skrg...skrg one of my very very beloved close friend skrg tgh berenjoy enjoy dgn his new friend...so, he leaves us behind...im so sad...i cant accept he did it to me n others of us...rase mcm persahabatan 5 tahun sebelom nih, meaningless..why he dit it to us????

dan sebab itu, aq jadi nak marah kat semua org..semua org yg involve dgn larinya dia drp kiteorg kpd kawan baru dia tuh...so marah dgn apa yg die buat tuh...aq jenis yg cemburu sgt2...aq x nak apa yg membuatkan aq bahagia, di rampas org...no.
no...no...no..

aq tak leh terima semua tuh..memang aq tak boleh terima..
really x blh terima....aq tak suka x suka..

tapi, kalau direnungkan balik, siapa aq utk denifying semua tuh..semua yg ade milik Allah...x kan selama lamanya utk kita....so, kena belajar terimalah....dia dah x nak dgn kita...dia dh ade yg baharu...so, its time for us to let him go....walaupon sakit, hakikat kena jugak telan....

but, for sure aku akn terima die dgn hati terbuka kalau die nak kembali lagi kpd kami...
jika aq sayang kat seseorg tuh, if ade benci pon...lapisan rasa syg aku yg tebal tuh akn menenggelamkan lapisan kebencian aq terhadap dia.....

semuanya kerana sayang...
aq terlalu sayang kat dia...
sehingga x blh tgk dia ada dgn org lain..
cemburu x bertempat actually...
so, syawal you need to accept all of this..

x kisah lah dye nk pergi dgn sape pon..all we need to do is redho..itu sudah kesuratan illahi....

pesanan utk si dia kawanku:
aq syg kau
aq x prnh benci kau
aq x blh hidup tanpa gurau senda kau
aq x blh hidup without your laugh
aq x lngkap tanpa kau
igt balik persahabtan 5 tahun lalu
bonding yg sdh terkukuh erat
takkan dgn sng jer nak pecahkan
tak kisah , kau nak kawan dgn sape2pon
at least, igt the person yg sebelum ini
yg selalu ade utk kau
aq x blh terima semua ini
tapi jika ini mmg kau yg nak
aq terpaksa terima
kau bknnyer ade ape ikatan dgn aq
sekadar kawan biasa
maaf lah kawan
jika aq ade membuatkan kau x selesa bersama aq dan yg lain
maaf sgt
aq akn cuba jd sahabt yg lebih baik lps ini
please lah balik kat kiteorg
kiteorg sgt rindui mg
please jgn buat kiteorg mcm nih
please
please
aq x marah kau
tapi aq just sakit hati
jika kau balik
kami sedia terima dgn hati n tgn terbuka

sekian sahaja, luahan jiwa dan lelehan air mta aq kali ini..sorry guys terpksa dgr luahan hati jiwang karat hijau aq nih..btw, assalamualaikum n night!!!!

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