x kira lah kekasih ker, kawan2 ker or famili korang..kan2!!!
so, the topic for today is all about
CEMBURU
or in english nyer we call as 'jealousy'..
yup
JEALOUSY!!!!
so,whats in your thought why i wanna talk about this universal topic right now....why???
fyi, im is kind of person that is very very cemburu...cemburu with a lot of things...
i dont know why???
i tried very hard to get rid all of these feelings...but i feel like i cant...
cemburu with that
with this
with anything
why
why
why????
ok...at first lah..cemburu terhadap kawan..
so i wanna ask korang, what willl you feel when your besties have a new friend..
apa korang rasa??
mesti sakit kan....sakit sgt..really sakit..
but here kita mesti paham that our kawan tuh x semestinya will be ours forever n ever...
we must learn how to let him or her go....
let him or her go here, not give the meaning that you need to let our friend go from entire of our life...no...
bkn mcm tuh...
kita kena belajar terima hakikat actually, kawan yg kita syg , cinta skrg..lps nih akn pergi jgk dr kita ikut haluan masing2...such as kahwin, kerja or study abroad...n lps kawan kita tuh pergi, he or she will find their own new friends..same cycle goes to us....
ok...sekarang mase nak relate kan ape yg aq ckp dgn apa yg aku hadapi skrg...skrg one of my very very beloved close friend skrg tgh berenjoy enjoy dgn his new friend...so, he leaves us behind...im so sad...i cant accept he did it to me n others of us...rase mcm persahabatan 5 tahun sebelom nih, meaningless..why he dit it to us????
dan sebab itu, aq jadi nak marah kat semua org..semua org yg involve dgn larinya dia drp kiteorg kpd kawan baru dia tuh...so marah dgn apa yg die buat tuh...aq jenis yg cemburu sgt2...aq x nak apa yg membuatkan aq bahagia, di rampas org...no.
no...no...no..
aq tak leh terima semua tuh..memang aq tak boleh terima..
really x blh terima....aq tak suka x suka..
tapi, kalau direnungkan balik, siapa aq utk denifying semua tuh..semua yg ade milik Allah...x kan selama lamanya utk kita....so, kena belajar terimalah....dia dah x nak dgn kita...dia dh ade yg baharu...so, its time for us to let him go....walaupon sakit, hakikat kena jugak telan....
but, for sure aku akn terima die dgn hati terbuka kalau die nak kembali lagi kpd kami...
jika aq sayang kat seseorg tuh, if ade benci pon...lapisan rasa syg aku yg tebal tuh akn menenggelamkan lapisan kebencian aq terhadap dia.....
semuanya kerana sayang...
aq terlalu sayang kat dia...
sehingga x blh tgk dia ada dgn org lain..
cemburu x bertempat actually...
so, syawal you need to accept all of this..
x kisah lah dye nk pergi dgn sape pon..all we need to do is redho..itu sudah kesuratan illahi....
pesanan utk si dia kawanku:
aq syg kau
aq x prnh benci kau
aq x blh hidup tanpa gurau senda kau
aq x blh hidup without your laugh
aq x lngkap tanpa kau
igt balik persahabtan 5 tahun lalu
bonding yg sdh terkukuh erat
takkan dgn sng jer nak pecahkan
tak kisah , kau nak kawan dgn sape2pon
at least, igt the person yg sebelum ini
yg selalu ade utk kau
aq x blh terima semua ini
tapi jika ini mmg kau yg nak
aq terpaksa terima
kau bknnyer ade ape ikatan dgn aq
sekadar kawan biasa
maaf lah kawan
jika aq ade membuatkan kau x selesa bersama aq dan yg lain
maaf sgt
aq akn cuba jd sahabt yg lebih baik lps ini
please lah balik kat kiteorg
kiteorg sgt rindui mg
please jgn buat kiteorg mcm nih
please
please
aq x marah kau
tapi aq just sakit hati
jika kau balik
kami sedia terima dgn hati n tgn terbuka
sekian sahaja, luahan jiwa dan lelehan air mta aq kali ini..sorry guys terpksa dgr luahan hati jiwang karat hijau aq nih..btw, assalamualaikum n night!!!!
assalam n haloooo..semua yg sudi tgk post saya pada kali nih..
hai, korang semua sihat ke idop..hope semua berada dalam keadaan yg sejahtera hendak-Nya...
bila kita sihat tuh, jgn lupa nak bersyukur kerana itu semua bkn milik kita sepenuhnya tetapi milik pencipta kita yang paling Agung iaitu Allah azza wajalla.dan, kalau yg x sihat tuh, byk2 lah bersabar kerana kita perlu ingat bahawa setiap musibah yang kita hadapi adlh kifarah trhadap dosa2 kita yg lampau(kifarah adalah mcm balsan lah...huhuhu)...
so, selesai bab muqaddimah pada hari nih...ahaks!!!!! lama dah rasenyer tak gelak gedik mcm tuh..btw, fyi, that ahaks gelak tuh aq tahu since aku tgk video Maria Elena..hahahahha...she is a very nice woman...cantik....bergaya...wulawei..cukup lengkap..untung si asfirdaus dpt kahwin dgn dye :( (ayt tacing n putus harapan...hahaha)...
for those yang x knl Maria Elena tuh...this is her with her beloved husband, Asfirdaus...
(very sweet muwitt n of coz crazy couple...ahaks!!)
ok...x nak dh aq melalut panjang...jadi, aq nak cter kat korang semua what happened to me last weekend....wuhuhuuuuu...last week (14-16 February 2014), aq telah dapat menghadiri satu program kepimpinan yang paling awesome pernah aq pergi...so happy!!!!
actually, aq tak expect lah pada hari khamis lps tuh, aq, aiman, n hafiz dipnggil oleh kaunselor utk dtg ke bilik kaunseling...tup tup diorang cakap esop kena kumpul kat HQ Mara untuk pergi ke raub, pahang for that program..terkejut tikus kiteorg dgr berita tuh, igtkan kena pergi next week ker or next month...tgk2....next day....ahhhhh...nasib baik x de ape yg mnghalang..at last dpt jgk, kiteorang pergi..wakil kptm kl for that programme not just three of us but ade 2 0rg lagi bdak degree.
at 8.30 am ,14/02/2014 (on this date, it was hafiz yahaya linggo's birthday, btw....sanah helwah my akhi hafiz....), aq n semua representatives kptm kl sampai kat HQ Mara tuh....at first kiteorg dtg, terjumpalah dgn si mamat idris nih...kiteorg knl sbb sama2 masuk program kepimpinan (global leadership 1.0) masa kat mrsm dulu....wah, so nice to meet him again...kihkihkih...die skrg kat kolej mara banting pursuing his ib (international bachelaurette)...
dalam lebih kurang, 11 am , kiteorg gerak ke jeram besu, the venue of our programme....kiteorg sampai to the camp site at 1.30 pm...n masih sempat nak tunaikan solat jumaat..after solat n makan2 semua, kiteorg terus diberikan some sort of knowledge about leadership n such oleh pengurus tempat latihan kami iaitu di kem pushing boundaries located at jeram besu, raub , pahang....the pengurus, kiteorang biasakan diri dgn panggilan "Cha"....kiteorg x expect, dia 70 tahun lebih sbb tgkkan cara berjalan n bercakap still kuat n bersemangat...lebih mengagumkan kiteorang, beliau adalah seorg bks perajurit negara (so bangga to meet him), n bekas student uni oxford n cambridge...so fantastic lah beliau punyer background...wow....wanna be like him...really i want....
after the knowledge sharing session, kiteorg diberikan satu task yg memerlukan kiteorg menawan hutan n bukit bukau...that task named as new horizon..b4 that, kiteorng dipecahkan kpd 8 group...(a-h group)...im luckily chosen to be in A's group..yeah!!!!before that too, kiteorg diberikan mata kumpulan iaitu sebyk 400k damras(that damras is just like our currency ringgit, but in this prog we use damras not rm)....at first, i was assigned to be the accountant in my group to take care all of those damras....yeahhh..feeling happy to implement all of the debit credit knowledge that i'd have.
selepas tu, kiteorg di bawa oleh our Facis which are syukri, jacky n pak cik mat to our first check point....n when we reached there, we need to settle one task named giant *something (idk)...
but b4 that, this is the pic of my facis...syukri (left) n jacky (right)
that very first task, very2 lah hard at first...kiteorang mcm really2 x phm with those instruction written on the paper..dh lah bahasa inggeris, so hard to understand what exactly the task is about.too much penalties kiteorg dpt, n stp kali penalties fined to us, a lot of our damras flow out from my account's book...so frustrated...ahhhh....after settling that task, we was attacked by the fake org asli yg diupah khas for dis prog...they boomed us with the same boom we have(that boom is perlu dibeli oleh stp group untuk defending purposes...n nak beli tuh...kena use lah our damras)....
two of us were attacked by the org asli....diorang kena boom...so, diorang secara x realitinya mati...so utk hdupkan kembali diorang, kena guna lagi our damras....nasib lah damras tuh not the exact duit, kalau x..blh botak kepala..hahahhha
lps tuh, kiteorg solat n terus bergerak ke second place kiteorang for the next mission berdasarkan bearing yg kiteorg tentukan...dh lah berjalan masuk hutan mcm tuh jer, maghrib plk tuh..terasa trakut sgt, tup tup ade binatang yg pelik2...eyuuu..tapi alhamdulillah, nothing bad is happened.nak sampai ke our next destination tuh, walawei really2 menyusahkan....n end up kiteorg sesat...n for sure, utk x nak sesat n sampai ke destinasi, kiteorg kena korbankan our damras utk pergi ke that place..we need to pay our facis for that..aghhhhhh!!! along the way to the place, kena serang dek org asli lagi....kiteorg semua x kira lah pompuan ke laki..terus berguling masuk dlm semak samun utk menyorok...supaya x nak di boom lah..if not, kena byr lagi..ahhh....disbbkan war dgn org asli tuh, kiteorg dpt generate another 75 k damras sbb some of our teammate manage to boom the org asli too...yayyy!!!
a lot of difficulties, dillemas, n conflicts happened to our group in order to accomplish this mission...terpaksa kena nego dgn a lot of other teams to get what we planned....after all of this, kiteorg pon sampai ke tmpt semua group lain berkumpul utk berehat n make it some unggun api...kiteorg mkn kat situ n tido utk teruskan mission next day...sejuk bkn kepalang tido dlm tuh beralaskan kanvas..tapi sabaulah....esopnyer, that mission alhamdulillah dpt dijayakan...n officially our first task is done...aq wondering jgk, n x sangka kena jungle trekking sampai pagi..not make sense giler..tapi nak buat cmner, its reality....terima jer lah this unforgettable memories...right???
ok2....lps that task..actually byk lagi task2 lain yg perlu kiteorg buat..but aq takkan lah nk cter semua..korang lah kena rase sendiri that unforgettable moments there...so, skrg aq nak cter pasal our show day at the last day kiteorg di kem tuh..we need to do the show to ensure all of the group manage to get 265000 damras for each group to qualify to get the certficate...a very huge conflicts happened, all of the other 7 group nak combine togther nk buat the performances..but our group teragak agak nk gabung or x...mungkin sbb ego kut, sbb we are the highest team yg ada damras kut..maybe lah that ego feeling ade dlm our group...so at last, kiteorg still gabung sbb we have no choice!! actually, there were a lot of choices, but the choice to combine is the best choice ever....(tahan malu kut nak masuk that crowd semula..hahah)...
after all of these, kiteorang manage to perform a very best performances..im in the group that performing choir and also choral singing...you should see this...
choral singing
koir
these were the shows that i performed..if you want to watch other performances, feel free to visit my youtube channel akhirsyawal... n make sure please subcribe, comment n like those video...
so, that all lah apa yg aq nak cter kali nih...so, here were some photos yg sempat aq ambik at the last day of us...:
assalamualaikum dan holla semua....wooha rindu gler aq nak menulis dlm blog keramat aq nih...hihihihi....so, no best entry nak hupdate kat sini tapi just luahan hati ade lah....kalau korang sudi nk dgr luahan hati aq nih..skroll lah sampai bawah yer...hahahah (ayat tacing nak mam***)..
so, before i go to our topic for today, i want to ask you, "how's your day...."(acece mcm english tcer plak aq nih)....mcm mana korang hari nih...best tak..awesome x hari nih..make sure hari2 kita, adalah hari untuk kita senyum..jgn sedih2...buruk sgt..hidup nih terlalu singkat utk kita sedih....senyumlah sentiasa walaupon hati sedih....sbbnye once kita senyum, kesedihan tuh mampu terubat..dan lebih magical nyer lagi mampu meringankan serba sedikit sakit org di sekeliling kita..hebat tak kuasa senyum ini..hahaha...
so skrg, aq nk ckp pasal that number in the title box(ade box ker..huhuhu...sapa x nmpak, die gigi jongos...)
8.2.14
that tarikh is just around the corner..x lama dah lusa nih kut...so mengerikan..tarikh nih adalah tarikh yg begitu MENGERIKAN or MENGUJAKAN bagi pelajar2 ACCA sekalian...(ACCA:association of certified charted accountant) ...hahaha...im proudly an ACCA student..why MENGERIKAN n why MENGUJAKAN.....dua perkataan yg berbeda bilangan abjad, cara sebut, n maksudnya sekali....
why?
why?
why?
why?
why?
on that date lah kiteorg akn dpt our exam result for december 2013 exam session...hahahhahah...so takut....but, when it comes to exam result day...akn muncul two type of people...
sorang yg akan mempunyai perasaan yang
MENGUJAKAN
dan seorang lagi yg akn da perasaan yang
MENGERIKAN
so, anda merupakan jenis org yg bagaimana....(tepuk dada, tanyalah selera.....hahaha)..kalau honestly aq akn ckp yg aq tergolong dlm golongan MENGERIKAN.hahahhaha...why mengerikan ???? byk faktor2 nya antaranya adalah:
kurang persediaan
jawab selamba badak masa exam
x cukup masa nk jwb
x kompem betul ke x jwb nih
kurang latihan
bla...bla..bla...
hahahahaha..rasa terkena ke uollss....huhuhuhu....ye mmg itulah yg aq pikirkan...aq mmg rs cuak cuak cuak cuak gler bila nk tibanya that date..rasa gelabah tak memasal..dh byk hari dh , x lena nk tido (yeyey jer aq nih).....ye lah sapa yg takut kan....dh lah kalau repeat paper byk duit kena pakai...aq dh lah pokai dh nih..poket kurus kerempeng dh nih..hohohoho....
so, next....org jenis MENGUJAKAN....why mrk blh berasa teruja with that date.....???? antara reasonnyer adalah(aq bkn tahu sgt, aq bknnyer golongan nih)..hahahah
rajin
yakin
jawab bersungguh2
usaha
berkat...
so, im not this type lah....hahahahah..really want to be in this cateogary..hahahahha....nk jadi mcm nih, too much pengorbann yg perlu dilakukan..antara nak atau tidak jer..kalau kita x snggup nk hadapi pengorbann itu, say goodbye lah...hahaha..
btw, paling yg tak bestnyer adalah ade golongan ke-3...yg aq sarankan jgn jgn jgn jgnlah antara kita yg ada perasaan nih..iaitu perasaan yg
x kisah
org mcm nih x kisah rsult diorang nih mcm mana...baik atau x terima jer...yg bagusnyer, mereka nih terlampau lah redho...tapi redho yg salah konsep lah....hahahahah...kalau nk redho mcm nih, kenalah ade ikhtiar n dh ikut cara2 bdk MENGUJAKAN..HAHAHA..
ok itu jer lah...aq punyer alkisah hari nih..letih plk aq nak menaip lama..maklumlah dh lama x menaip..kihkihkihkih...
